So, update time.

Mom and Richard broke it off. Thank God.

Me and Miriam have broken it off. Which distressed me muchly, but Rach and Terry managed to convince me that I am in fact very much loved and needed, and thus I snapped out of the depressive mood I'd been in.

Me and Tim are... very close. Friend-wise. I don't think I trust men anymore after dad, Daniel and Derek (Christ, three 'D's) but... I dunno. If I ever start having romantic feelings for a male again, Tim'd probably be the one I'd crush on. Love ya babes. ;)

Have come to terms with the fact that I'm living a new life now. I'm in Australia, I dislike it and I wish for Beijing back, but I can't have it back and even if I did, it's ruined now. Loads of my friendships have disintegrated, I'm not with Miri... there doesn't seem to be a point anymore. And, rather than being caught between two worlds, I should just look at Aussieland and take it as it is.

I love all the friends I have that made me pull through everything. Tim, and Lauren; and all my crazy netfriends. Rachel, I'm still engaged to you no matter what. We shall be together after school. You'll see. XD

Oh, and my English has gotten better, in inverse proportion to my level of Chinese, which is rapidly sinking. It's better that I can talk more easily to English-speaking friends though, I guess.

Much love to all.

*blows kisses to Rachel and Terry* Thanks you guys. I don't know what I'd do without you two.

Rachel and Terry have told me to stop private posting. So I'm stopping. I want to say sorry right now for if I ever end up depressing anyone of you who reads this.

There's another man at our house. His name's Richard. My mom been dating for for two months now, and is talking about marrying him. I'm saying no. Me and my mom just had a huge row about it two hours ago.

I hate this. Ever since Celeste left mom seems to feel the need to get settled down to another man. I don't want another man in my life!! I hate seeing all these men walking in and out of our house, and I hate them all for putting my mom on highs and then sinking her again. I hate all of them, and I especially hate those who treat me their some sort of pseudo daughter. Who do you think you are, my father? I still have a father, and I still hate him to death. I don't want a new one. Fuck off!! I don't want to know you. Get out of our house.

I don't know why mom keeps feeling like she needs a new husband. She's technically still married to him, and Celeste and I have both passed the stage where we need a father figure. I get her wanting to be loved and how her children loving her aren't the same as a life partner, but, mom, why? There's no need. If she were just dating then okay, but she's looking for a husband and for that there's no need. I hate it, she's only destroying herself. I wish I could tell her how much I hate to see her coming home from work totally happy then seeing her come home one day totally depressed and lifeless. I hate these men for treating my mother like some rag doll.

Crushes suck. I have a really bad one on this girl in school right now. I'm friends with her, and every time we talk I just want to throw my arms around her and hug her, because she's so beautiful and smart and funny. I hate this place. I wish I were still in Beijing, not in Australia. It's nothing against the people, they're great and all, but they can't compare to my friends back in China. I miss the openness, and the competetiveness. Here, I'm too stupid at English and too smart at Maths. People tease me because of my accent, and that's understandable but I'm getting sick of it. I don't feel like I should be here.

After school I'm definitely going to take a gap year before going to University. I'm going to go back to Beijing for a while, even if my friends aren't there anymore. I miss it so much.

Maroon 5's MV for She Will Be Loved is so sad. ;-;

The girl is so hot though. The one with the hazel eyes. Oh my God, how can the singer dump her for her mother? Her mother's pretty, but not hot.

Ahhh. *fans self*

The singer's pretty good-looking too. Squee and pretty people and stuff. XDD

Yeh, this is a pretty pointless post. Whatev, saith I.

I'm bored. =\

First off, a huge CONGRATULATIONS to my beloved fiancee for scoring the As and yut man mun. Hee, there you were being all cute and stressed out and you ended up getting two As in subjects you thought you'd failed in. Yayness to my beloved for rich and intelligent! <333

Today was pretty good. I went with Tim for an after-school coffee. Tim's such a great guy; he's so cute (personality-wise), and funny, and he's so amazingly open that it's almost like talking to my best friend. We talked about a lot of stuff, like our families and why people do the things they do... it was one of the most interesting and deep (RL) talks I've had in my life. And, well, it's just so very rare to find someone you can talk to, just like that.

And, I owe him a coffee.

Also, I found this friendship quiz thingie floating around on LiveJournal. It's quite fun; very guess work-y.

MY THREE BEST RL ('REAL LIFE') FRIENDS
#1. Name: Lauren Appleby
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: She's funny, perky, and great fun to be with.
His/her favorite food/s are: Ummm... Chinese chow mein?
His/her favorite book/s: The Da Vinci Code... or something like that.
His/her favorite TV series: Animaniacs!
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "Peachy keen!"

#2. Name: Miriam Tien
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: She's cute, funny, and my girlfriend? ^_~
His/her favorite food/s are: Brownies, cinnamon rolls, caesar salads.
His/her favorite book/s: ... Fallen Leaves? No... erm, it's a manga. I forgot the name. Cardcaptor Ying?
His/her favorite TV series: Xing zi ka bi.
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "No speakee Engleesh!!"

#3. Name: Tim Anders
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: ... I just said it in my post. o_O
His/her favorite food/s are: Um. Gah. Um. Pepper meat pies.
His/her favorite book/s: American Gods, by Neil Gaiman.
His/her favorite TV series: The Practice...?
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "Oh God no."


MY THREE BEST ONLINE FRIENDS
#1. Name: Rachel Wong/spitfirez/mnemosyne/opalgirlz/ai rennnn!
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: She's adorable. And she's hilarious in this weird, sarcastic, dry sorta way, and is somehow more... 3D than all the rest of my online friends?
His/her favorite food/s are: Aaaack. Spaghetti House's meat pasta.
His/her favorite book/s: Stardust by Gaiman, Good Omens by Gaiman and Terry Pratchett.
His/her favorite TV series: ... Smallville?
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "Think of a blob. A big, round blob. Imagine it to be a blob of fat in the shape of me. Imagine it sans skin. I'd slobber down the pavements and into a drain. Wheeness and stuff."

#2. Name: Terence Blake/beloved 'sister'-in-law
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: He's just like Rachel, but unintentionally funny. And he's supportive like you wouldn't believe. ^__^ I can always open my inbox and see an e-mail from him there.
His/her favorite food/s are: ... Crap.
His/her favorite book/s: The Sandman comic books series?
His/her favorite TV series: ... Damn it. Uh. Law and Order SVU?
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "I AM a happy person! I'm happy like you wouldn't believe. I'm happy like Rachel is vocabularilikelly challenged."

#3. Name: Tea-chan/the monster living under my bed.
Reasons why s/he's your best friend: She's scary. Just. Scary.
His/her favorite food/s are: UDON!! ... And fish fingers.
His/her favorite book/s: The Count Cain manga.
His/her favorite TV series: Just Shoot Me. XD
The first saying you think of when you think of him/her: "HAPPY BOUNCY CHIPMUNKAHS LYKE OMGLOLBBQ!!!1"


... And that's about all from me today. ^^;

... I've changed my mind. Still in liking of the pretty boys. ^__^

Ahhhh. I feel so lethargic today. I spent pretty much about three hours on the sofa curling and uncurling and yawning, so much so that my sister came out and stuffed my 'cat ears' beanie onto my head.

Everyone on my MSN list -save for Rachel- is busy or away. Grr and I am upset.

Mom took me to see the doctor today. He said I might be depressed. Hee. This amuses me muchly, for I have been pretty much euphoric for the past week or so. At any rate, he says I'm not seriously so and therefore don't need meds, but he recommends that I take a rest. My mom and I laughed about that for at least five minutes after we left the clinic. The silly quack.

I wrote a tiny ficlet about a mochaccino girl an hour back. Threw it away. Warble.

Meant to Live got onto the Spider-Man 2 soundtrack. Hee. The lyrics fit Peter so well. Didn't realize that.

Rachel's "Alfred Molina is so freakin' perfect as Doc Ock; he's naturally evil-looking!" obsession has got to be unhealthy. I agree with her "There's too much stuff on Peter. Blah blah blah; it's a bloody relief when something actually happens," statement though.

Ahh. My shoulder hurts.

I went and took Cyan's (my sister. She actually took your name, Rach!) advice about getting MSN Nega. Friends-of-Rachel, if you kept seeing her flash on and off... er, that was me. Sorry. ^_^;;

Life is getting tedious. It's up, get ready, go to school, don't freeze, come home, skulk around, draw, write, get online, sleep. (And sleep and eat and go to the loo, occasionally.) I want to say I'm feeling apathetic as well, 'cept that apathetic means 'lack of emotion', right? But I don't have a lack of emotion. My problem is that I'm currently only feeling one emotion, and that's happiness. Which is a good thing I think, 'cept that normal people feel a range. I don't even feel sleepy in the mornings. Maybe my hormones are whacked.

And, yeah, my grammar sucks. My sentences feel choppy. Ugh, Ms. Rainer is such a pain, always telling me how my English sucks so bad. Oh pooh, it's not like she knows any other languages. I defy her to try learn Chinese. I dare!

I watched Shaman King again today. I think I've caught Rachel's bad boy/Chinese person disease. I no longer like Yoh as much and now like Ren. (I don't get the '33' thing. Is this some Chinese thing I'm missing here? Ugh, no matter how Chinese-y I may be I'm still a guai mui somehow.) Jun is cool too... I wish she'd show up more. I think I'd also like her much better if she weren't attracted to a zombie.

I kinda miss Miriam. My mom's mad at me for bringing up the phone bills last month, and Miri doesn't have internet so I won't be able to talk to her until next month. It's her birthday next week as well... I got her this silver bracelet and a choker... hopefully I'll be able to smuggle it to her without my mom noticing.

Lauren's crazy, but I still miss Tiffy. Gahhh, why do I miss so many people? The Aussie crew doesn't seem to be as fun. No, they're more fun, but the Beijing lot were sillier. That and I miss having a girlfriend... Miri was so great, she was so fun and so cute when you tickled her, and I miss her kissing me on the cheek (I remember us agreeing that we would never kiss on the mouth, because she wasn't sure whether she swung that strongly to the fem/fem side. I on the other hand am 50% sure that I'm a lesbian and 50% sure that I'm bi. Which reminds me. Show of hands here: Sexuality? Just out of interest).

Oh, well. At least my mom's going to move us back in December. (And then I'll have to wait for months before I can rejoin the system, but at least I'll be back, so yay.)

Toodle!

edit: My mom just went out, got the post, found a package addressed to me, and woke me up. So now it's 11:35pm, my hair's frizzy, and I'm a grumpy little pudding. (So I'm not just happy! Yay! ... I mean grr.)

On the up side, Tea-chan, I got the stuff! Thank you so much, it's impossible to find Chinese manga here! Much love! <33 XD

First off, I'd like to give a "THANKS!!" to Willbe (I love the layout! I hope you're reading this! I love it I love it thank you so much!) and Rachel (I will learn to HTML some day! Just you wait!) for the peachy keen layout. It's gorgeous!

Second (off), I'd like to say that Rachel is a chicken genius and don't sheep go "Baa"?

Third, I'd kinda like to explain why I chose cinnamon-bun as a username. Rach and Ter were persuading me to get some 'cool' name like melpemone or kaleli (which is my 'real' name in Hawaiian), but in the end I just had to go with cinnamon-bun not because I particularly like cinnamon buns, but because it sounded sweet. Oh, I know, sweet, ew, gross and all of the like, but I'm just a sucker for sweet things. I was going through all these names in my mind ('crystal bubbles' actually came up once, much to Terry's apparent [and quite amusing] horror) and finally thought, 'Well hey, cinnamon, that's not too (overbearingly) sweet, is it?'

As for 'bun', well, it makes it sound fluffy. And I love fluffy things. Just ask Rachel, who was forced to buy me this huge fluffy bunny the last time I went over to Hong Kong to stop me squealing obsessively over it. (I've named her Mrs. Schnubbles. Just to make Rachel squirm. Haha, you're such a uke. :P) Plus, I used to call all my friends 'bun'... like Terry-bun, Miri-bun, Apple-bun, ee-tee-cee.

Y'know... I don't know why, but I just can't write anymore. I used to write so much, and now I can't seem to pull myself to it. Too lazy, maybe? Ick. I feel more like drawing now-- but NOT comics, silly Rachel-bun. Too much work for me.

I was playing The Sims earlier today... interesting, cuz apparently Librans aren't very 'neat' (as in, 'tidy') creatures. Lauren, Rachel, is that true? :P

I've run out of things to say. Ah well. Post another day.

Oh, and I've changed my e-mail address. I'll still be using the same one for MSN (cuz MSN's STOOPID!!), but my other addie'll be dallarel@yahoo (dot com, of course, but I don't wanna add that in cuz of something with spambots or something or other.)

Toodle!

edit: I couldn't resist.


What Yaoi Stereotype Are You?
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"Ah, you are one of the most common yaoi stereotypes. You're hot and you know it, as does most of the population. With such good looks and mad skillz, who are you to deny any percentage of humanity from being able to have you? This is why your kind tend to swing both ways, if you know what I mean *wink*. Also, while you prefer to be seme, you've been known to be uke when the situation calls for it. Just as long as everyone's having fun and enjoying themselves. Protean Players are also amongst the friendliest of the yaoi stereotypes, and the most outgoing. You aren't afraid to speak your mind or jump right into things. Be careful, though, because your rep may come back to bite you on the ass if you ever settle down with a steady lover. It'll be hard for you to even LOOK at another person without making your significant other think youre foolin' around behind their back. Is it your fault you're so damn sexy?

Likeliness of being seme: 80%
Likeliness of being uke: 20%"

It just amused me how Rachel swung from one opposite to the other so easily. ^^;

Whee! Look! It's up! Who da chicken genius? :D

~ Maaaa.